I can feel it all….again
Every lyric is a breadcrumb trail back to the version of me that survived that moment. The way a single song can drop me into a memory—full body, full heart. And I’m sharing those playlists! 
The stretch from 2019 to 2024 for me? That’s not just years. That’s lifetimes.
Loss. Love. Ego death. Resurrection.
I walked through fire and kept the soundtrack.
“Time Traveler’s Playlist”
💔 The Grief Years
🔥 Toxic Love + Rage Recovery (Enjoy the waves, yawl 🚩)
- 🌑 The Dark Soul of the Night
🧠✨ Ego Death + Awakening
💡 The Truth Era
- 🌼 Becoming Gma
⚡️ HE-MAN resurrection – Thanks Gamora
🎗️ BRCA + Beyond
- 🦸♀️ Finding My Inner Superhero; embracing Neurodivergence
- 🌙 Being Mia and Nikita’s Mom Through All This
- 💜 LOVE is ALL
Let’s honor Cameron’s Mom, who sat with those words, feelings and emotions. I Cry/Screamed every lyric in my car and IN MY LAB. Wiped every unseen tear myself. Music held me close and let me know I was not alone. I kept going. I turned all the pain into power. 4 years of gut wrenching, down on my knees crying. Begging for peace, safety, and to be loved. I HAVE ALL THOSE NOW!
They say love is blind, but toxic love is deaf, dumb, and wrapped in fireworks. It starts like a dream and ends in a war zone. And the worst part? We often ignore the red flags waving right in front of us. Also… I still can’t listen to Adele, smh…Hopefully, I’ll get there too! I have found a song to fit every single emotion. What’s the one you can’t touch without crying? (I have whole playlists for this!)
That’s it. Full circle.
Back to love.
Back to self.
After everything—I’m still here. Still standing. Still choosing love.
Not the fairytale love. Not the filtered kind.
But that deep, gritty, scarred-but-beautiful, I’ve-earned-this kind of love.
The kind that whispers:
“I am the love I’ve been waiting for.”
And damn… what a plot twist that is…..SURFS UP!
I will be writing more about a lot of these impactful songs and artists.
WARRIOR #dontstop
Em Beihold’s music is my lifeline in disguise.
There’s something about her sound that wraps around me like a hug—soft, steady, and real. Her lyrics make me feel seen in a way I didn’t know I needed. It’s like she took the tangled mess in my head and turned it into a melody. And even when my feelings are low, I find myself singing.
Her music is catchy, yes—but it’s more than that. It sneaks into the cracks of my day, lifts me when I didn’t think I could be lifted, and makes me feel good without asking me to pretend everything’s okay. I catch myself humming, tapping along, maybe even smiling… all while still holding space for the sadness. It’s magic. And in a strange, beautiful way, I feel like I’m not going through it alone.
Em Beihold
I really enjoy listening to Em Beihold’s music. Her lyrics always make me feel comforted. She describes my feelings in a way I sometimes can’t.